Tuesday, March 3. 2009
Her True Last Words
Your mother said something before she was excuted. Something very important.
I have no mother. She was just a woman that unwillingly gave birth to me.
They were her last words if you will.
She was a traitor. What could she have said that was of any consequence?
She told me in Basic, as to tell you, when you were her age.
Father. Why are you torturing yourself?
You must understand, Sela. I loved her.
And she betrayed you.
Yes, she tried to betray me. But I know that she had good reasons for that. From her point of you. For instance, she never loved me. Wait. Sela. You must listen. I loved her dearly, as much as my heart could be forced to love anyone. And she also tried to love me, because she was greatful. But she coluldn't. And so she decided to go so that she wouldn't hurt me any longer, realising every day that she was not truely happy.
And then she showed her gratitude, when she was trying to steal away your child?
Her child, Sela. Listen. I love you very much. I have always loved you, from the beginning. But you are not my child. Not genetically, that is.
Father! With all respect. You are talking nonsense. I am half Human and half Romulan.
No, my dear. You are not. Your mother tried to let me believe that, but I had known the answer from the first moment we met. Then, she was already pregnant.
But -
I know that must come as a shock, my dear. But it's the truth.
Truth! So that is your truth that you have protected me all those years, even though you knew I was not Romulan, nor your real child?
I made this promise to your mother, that I would protect you and raise you as a true Romulan.
A true Romulan!
I understand that you are bitter. But there was no other way. Other wise you would have been killed together with your mother. She saved your life, while I could not save her. You were too young to understand all this. And when you had screamed, and all the servants, and the neighbours had seen her trying to take you away, I had no other chance than having her arrested. I suffered so much. I had already known that you were not my child. But I loved you just like I loved her. And when she confessed this to me in her death cell, I told her that I had already known, and that I was going to protect you by any means necessary. Even if it meant to make you hate her. And we agreed on that, and for the first time in her life she loved me dearly, and then we had to say good-bye for ever. It tore me apart. But I saw in her look that she was proud to go this way. Saving her daughter.
No. No!
Sela. She loved you. And even when she decided to leave our house, her love had made that decision.
No!
So you became my child, after all. And there was no one in the universe who would have disputed me, even if you looked so very much Human.
But my physiology.
Is faked. We did this to ensure that you wouldn't be exposed by an accidental scan.
All those years!
Yes my dear. That was your mothers heritage. She wanted you to have a better life than she had. A quiet life, always knowing where to belong to.
But why are you telling me this now?
Because I am dying.
No! Oh, no! Father! I mean -
Yes. Yes. It's alright, Sela. I am your father, the only one you have ever learned to love and respect. And I love you, too. But this truth has it's value for you, you will see. I can no longer protect you, when I die. And I wanted you to see clearly, as I have promised your mother, when I kissed her for the last time, and when she kissed me for the first time willingly, and with affection.
Father! Father -
Yes, cry my dear. Cry! It is a time for tears, when heroes go. And your mother was a hero. And she told me this in Basic, before she took her last breath, she said: When she's my age, tell her to find Richard Castillo's relatives.
Richard Castillo?
Yes. That was the name.
Is he my father? I mean -
Yes he is the man who was your mother's great love before I met her. She told me all this in Basic, but of course I had figured out straight away that it was the name of a man, your original father, that she had told me. And it only needed a bit of research until I found out that he had been on the same Federation vessel your mother was on, and that we had caputered. According to the record his body was never found. But there had been a fire on board so he was registered as dead due to that fire.
You knew this all those years, father? If it weren't for you, if anyone else had told me this -
I know, Sela. You have turned out a true Romulan.
And now I am nothing anymore. NOTHING! WhY did you have to tell me? I could have gone on like this for ever.
No, my dear child. I have seen you come a long way from the child that did not really know what it meant to cry out and sentence a mother to death, to be the woman you are today, fighting Federation as your worst enemy.
The Federation -
- are your people. You are one of them.
I can never be one of them.
They are forgiving, Sela. They're not Romulan.
I don't believe it that I am standing here, listening to all this.
You've proven yourself strong, Sela. I have faith in you. You will manage. Leave Romulus as soon as you can. Don't wait for my death, as I am forced too.
I won't go anywhere.
Please do not contradict me, now that I've become sick and weak. Find Richard Castillo's relatives. Please my dear. Find your heritage. So that your mother's and my love won't be wasted. Go. Now!
Richard Castillo.
Yes, my dear. Jolan tru.
I have no mother. She was just a woman that unwillingly gave birth to me.
They were her last words if you will.
She was a traitor. What could she have said that was of any consequence?
She told me in Basic, as to tell you, when you were her age.
Father. Why are you torturing yourself?
You must understand, Sela. I loved her.
And she betrayed you.
Yes, she tried to betray me. But I know that she had good reasons for that. From her point of you. For instance, she never loved me. Wait. Sela. You must listen. I loved her dearly, as much as my heart could be forced to love anyone. And she also tried to love me, because she was greatful. But she coluldn't. And so she decided to go so that she wouldn't hurt me any longer, realising every day that she was not truely happy.
And then she showed her gratitude, when she was trying to steal away your child?
Her child, Sela. Listen. I love you very much. I have always loved you, from the beginning. But you are not my child. Not genetically, that is.
Father! With all respect. You are talking nonsense. I am half Human and half Romulan.
No, my dear. You are not. Your mother tried to let me believe that, but I had known the answer from the first moment we met. Then, she was already pregnant.
But -
I know that must come as a shock, my dear. But it's the truth.
Truth! So that is your truth that you have protected me all those years, even though you knew I was not Romulan, nor your real child?
I made this promise to your mother, that I would protect you and raise you as a true Romulan.
A true Romulan!
I understand that you are bitter. But there was no other way. Other wise you would have been killed together with your mother. She saved your life, while I could not save her. You were too young to understand all this. And when you had screamed, and all the servants, and the neighbours had seen her trying to take you away, I had no other chance than having her arrested. I suffered so much. I had already known that you were not my child. But I loved you just like I loved her. And when she confessed this to me in her death cell, I told her that I had already known, and that I was going to protect you by any means necessary. Even if it meant to make you hate her. And we agreed on that, and for the first time in her life she loved me dearly, and then we had to say good-bye for ever. It tore me apart. But I saw in her look that she was proud to go this way. Saving her daughter.
No. No!
Sela. She loved you. And even when she decided to leave our house, her love had made that decision.
No!
So you became my child, after all. And there was no one in the universe who would have disputed me, even if you looked so very much Human.
But my physiology.
Is faked. We did this to ensure that you wouldn't be exposed by an accidental scan.
All those years!
Yes my dear. That was your mothers heritage. She wanted you to have a better life than she had. A quiet life, always knowing where to belong to.
But why are you telling me this now?
Because I am dying.
No! Oh, no! Father! I mean -
Yes. Yes. It's alright, Sela. I am your father, the only one you have ever learned to love and respect. And I love you, too. But this truth has it's value for you, you will see. I can no longer protect you, when I die. And I wanted you to see clearly, as I have promised your mother, when I kissed her for the last time, and when she kissed me for the first time willingly, and with affection.
Father! Father -
Yes, cry my dear. Cry! It is a time for tears, when heroes go. And your mother was a hero. And she told me this in Basic, before she took her last breath, she said: When she's my age, tell her to find Richard Castillo's relatives.
Richard Castillo?
Yes. That was the name.
Is he my father? I mean -
Yes he is the man who was your mother's great love before I met her. She told me all this in Basic, but of course I had figured out straight away that it was the name of a man, your original father, that she had told me. And it only needed a bit of research until I found out that he had been on the same Federation vessel your mother was on, and that we had caputered. According to the record his body was never found. But there had been a fire on board so he was registered as dead due to that fire.
You knew this all those years, father? If it weren't for you, if anyone else had told me this -
I know, Sela. You have turned out a true Romulan.
And now I am nothing anymore. NOTHING! WhY did you have to tell me? I could have gone on like this for ever.
No, my dear child. I have seen you come a long way from the child that did not really know what it meant to cry out and sentence a mother to death, to be the woman you are today, fighting Federation as your worst enemy.
The Federation -
- are your people. You are one of them.
I can never be one of them.
They are forgiving, Sela. They're not Romulan.
I don't believe it that I am standing here, listening to all this.
You've proven yourself strong, Sela. I have faith in you. You will manage. Leave Romulus as soon as you can. Don't wait for my death, as I am forced too.
I won't go anywhere.
Please do not contradict me, now that I've become sick and weak. Find Richard Castillo's relatives. Please my dear. Find your heritage. So that your mother's and my love won't be wasted. Go. Now!
Richard Castillo.
Yes, my dear. Jolan tru.
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